Intimacy Allergy Card
When someone talked about his emotions, I’ll shown them my intimacy allergy card. My first serious relationship broke up and that hurt. Maybe I clasp him tightly then contributing his anxiety. He`s seeking more distance. Lately I found something about intimacy and that`s frightening. Intimacy is vulnerability. It`s the risk to opening myself up. It means sharing all sides of myself, expose my sentimentality, my melodramatic life, my past, my stupid thoughts, my despair, my dreams, weaknesses and fear. That would be the last person who I shared my whole story of life. Now I fanatically defend. Loving means risking hurt, risking loss, risking abandonment. When we broke up, my ex got over it in one week. It took me weeks or even years! Surely one moment can`t heal my heart. (Mostly or hopefully) people takes one year or more to gathered their own pieces. And ow yea, I`ve loved and lost. And yes, it hurt like hell. And no, I don`t wanna go back there again. Loving means he will find out wh